My eyes are closed my arms are open. Willing myself know everything, without sight like so many others. Wondering how you could love someone without knowing them or even yourself. When do you decide to know yourself other enough to truly love another? My eyes are open my hearing is gone I see your lips moving and your eyes are wide attempting to get your point across I can’t hear a thing so I can’t hear your lies but I do see you pretty face. To you touch is like betray to everything I have every known to my core I know it’s wrong. You’re so pretty while you ugly lies separate me from the world. Your hand touches me from nothing close to a caress. It hurts I cry out you laugh as my blood mingles with my tears. I know I must leave to get away from this madness it can’t be love if it hurts so much. You come to me after you are no longer under the influence the influence of anger among other things. You weep and apologies for what you have done. You say you never will forgive yourself for what you did to me. I accept as the dread in my gut increase. I knew it wouldn’t change but I stayed. The days grew longer and marks you left on my body grew worse. I could never leave I knew that. I had nowhere to go and no one left who cared you made sure of that. I only have you. As I closed my eyes and wished for another way I started with a plan. My pillow was soft in contrast to your strong grip around my holding me against you, so you would know every move I made. The morning I made your breakfast and listen to every complaint. The night I made your dinner and I served it. I brought you drink after drink and before you passed out I half dragged you to bed. Your grip wasn’t as tight and I knew moment you passed on. I was unable describe a dead body except unmoving and cold. I didn’t get up with unexpected terror; I didn’t want a chance for you to rise. They took you in a dark bag. A few tears were the only goodbye I allowed myself to give you. I left you in a grave and started leading a life I wouldn’t regret. Part of me died the day I killed you. However another part was reborn. I tainted every piece of food and drink I brought you that night so there would be no mistake.